By Teena Myers
Jeremy was born into a home fully committed to Christ. His parents named him Jeremiah Daniel after two prophets in the Bible. As a child, Jeremy sensed there was more to God than his church taught him. He knew God would speak through scriptures, but he longed for something a little more tangible. To Jeremy, God felt distant. A supreme being who dictated morality that might bless him if he was good. But the blessing would be the bare minimum, primary needs but not an abundance. He had knowledge about God, but not a relationship that would have dispelled the false image he had accepted. It never occurred to him there are other ways God can speak to us.
A defining moment in Jeremy’s childhood is a verse in James Chapter 5 that he not only heard but acted upon. “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him” (James 1:5, NKJV). He began asking God for wisdom at a young age, a practice he continues to this day. “I think God honored that request by bringing people into my life that would awaken me to the reality of God’s presence,” said Jeremy.
The awakening began when circumstances required Jeremy to accept a desk job. Working so far outside his skills created stress in his life. Every morning he rose early to drink coffee, and enjoy some time alone, so he would not feel like a slave to his desk job. During his “me time” he sensed God saying “give me this time, and I will do amazing things.” But Jeremy ignored the promptings of God’s spirit.
Everything changed when a coworker asked Jeremy a question, “How do you hear the voice of God?” He responded with the standard cliché answers: scripture or the counsel of others. That simple question led to a decision that introduced Jeremy to a deeper relationship with God.
Jeremy and his friend began meeting before work to talk about spiritual things. One morning, they decided to be quiet for twenty minutes and meditate on God according to Psalms 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God.” During that time Jeremy became aware of his addiction to chaos. He hated the silence and the anxiety of what might happen should he allow himself to be “present in the moment.”
After ten minutes of frustration, he entertained thoughts of quitting. Instead, he took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and relaxed. Moments later, eyes still closed, he saw a cloud within him heavy with moisture. The cloud seemed tangible and emanated a feeling of joy and peace. The cloud slowly rose upward within him, and became thicker as it approached his head. “Am I going to die?” Jeremy asked God. His question remained unanswered and the cloud continued to rise until it came out of the top of his head.
“In that moment, I was completely engulfed in this peace, this rest, this feeling, this tangible reality that I’ve never felt before,” said Jeremy. “While it didn’t kill me, it was the first time in my life I truly felt the tangible presence of God and understood that I had already died with Christ, and I was fully alive in him. It ruined me. I was wrecked. That experience changed everything.” Scripture that had bored him in the past came alive.
Today Jeremy hears the voice of God continually and clearly. In his quiet moments, he receives knowledge and understanding that has changed the course of his life and the lives of others.